I feel down!

I'm dizzy!

I'm soo afraid!

I finished writing my "TDK" essay:

Ero guro nansensu
Erotic and grotesque elements in Edogawa Ranpo's novels

Reading!

Reading!

Writing!

Hétvége!

I read my e-mails!

Sweet freedom!

Work's over!

Now I'm sick!

I am sooooooo tired!

I have a job for a month!

Vége az őszi AnimeCon-nak!

AnimeCon a hétvégén!

A szabály: ne sokat gondolkodj! Melyik az a tizenöt könyv vagy történet, amit olvastál, és ami mindig veled marad? Nem feltétlenül ezek az általad olvasott legnagyobb könyvek, de ezeket sosem felejted el. Írd le, mi az első 15 könyv, ami max. 15 perc alatt az eszedbe jut! Aztán másold le a szabályokat, és jelölj be (legalább) 10 embert, akikkel ezt meg szeretnéd osztani!

1. Anne Rice: Vámpírkrónikák
2. Anita Blake sorozat
3. Harry Potter sorozat
4. Sherlock Holmes sorozat
5. Edogawa Ranpo: Ningenisu
6. Akutagawa Ryuunosuke: A vihar kapujában
7. Dosztojevszkij: Bűn és Bűnhődés
8. Jókai Mór: Az Arany Ember
9. Homérosz: Iliász
10. Homérosz: Odüsszeia
11. Isaac Asimov: Az Alapítvány sorozat
12. Fred Hoyle - John Elliot: Androméda
13. Gárdonyi Géza: Egri Csillagok
14. Edgar Alan Poe: A fekete macska
15. Alexandre Dumas: Monte Cristo grófja

I'm sick!

Ma nagyon rosszul voltam. Voltak pillanatok, mikor azt hittem én most meghalok.

Újra működik!

Sikerült megoldani a kódolási problémát. Ugyan nem tökéletes, de ez is megteszi.

Help me!

A dream fluttering on the surface of the black ocean
Squirming wings torn to the bones
The screaming waves devour the soul

---

Hullám hegyén a hullám,
Hullát cipel a hátán

...after a few hours

I solved the problem. I cut out all the utf-8 characther code settings, and rewrote it to iso-8859-1 this way it works at least, althought Japanese characters turn to code numbers in the html coding... But right now I don't know any other solution that works. Just don't look at the web source!

Reading The Memoirs Of Sherlock Holmes

シャーロック・ホームズ

I have enough og this shit. When I watch my webpage from my computer the character codings are all right, both the Hungarian and the Japanese are as they should be, but when I upload them and review them from the web, it turns out to be fucked up. All the other pages I view use the same codes, but only mine is the one that does not work...

I tried different variations but I DO NOT KNOW what's the problem is....
SOMEONE HELP!
Or for the rest of the existence of the page I'm forced to write in English, and delete all the Hungarian and Japanese text, and for a Japanese song translation section it is pretty annoying to not be able to use Japanese characters...

I even started to update something regularly, and wrote out some of my feelings, a few thoughts and some 'poemlike' things.... in Hungarian... And Hell it's not the same in English.

Hajtsd szét szárnyaid felkelő nap,
Égő tollaid hulljanak!
Terítsék be vállaim selymes fényeddel,
Szemeim váltsák lángoló ébenre!

Arcomat érintse meleg sóhajod,
Szívemet szorítsa ölelő karod,
Lelkem húrjain játsszon zenélő szemed,
Sötét szárnyaid add ím nekem!

I finished my second Robert Downey Jr. - Sherlock Holmes drawing.
You can find it here:

A szerelem olyan, mint egy tőr a szívben.
Erősen szorítani kell, hogy életben tartson és lassan öljön meg,
Mert ha kihúzod azonnal meghalsz...

Watched a few Robert Downey Jr. movies.

Last Week:

Kiss Kiss Bang Bang
(Love this film, it is so funny and cute)

Zodiak
(It was a bit boring, but still good)


This Week:

Air America

U.S. Marshals
(Good actors and interesting story, when I watched the Sherlock trailer, I was like oh that's the guy from that movie with Weasley Sniper and Tommy Lee Jones. At that time I still haven't watched Ironman, cause someone told me it's a lame movie. If I could remember who it was the person would be dead now.)

Wonder Boys
(He was creepy with those smiles XDD But I liked the character)

A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints
(This movie has no meaning)

Charlie Bartlett
(This was OK)

The Soloist
(Well, I was crying over this)


Yesterday:

In Dreams
(Ohh my God this is utterly disturbing)

Two Girls and a Guy
(That is one of the worst movies I have ever watched, there is only one good scene in the whole movie and that can be considered as porn)

Hearth and Soul
(I always liked this one)

Nyugodtan rúgjatok belém,aztán ha szólok szájba is vághattok. Majd ha kiderül a végén, hogy nekem volt igazam, ki is taposhatjátok a belemet!

!SHERLOCK!

!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY NISHI!!

Sorry for the delay I should have written to you yesterday! But my love will compensate it. XDDD
*hugs and kisses*
I have and idea what should I make u for your birthday, but since u only come home in September, I will have time to draw it. (I wont tell you any further it will be a surprise) XDDD So I hope you will come in September!!!

I forgot to update

I'm reading Sherlock Holmes now. Partly because of the new movie with Robert Downey, Jr. and partly because if I want to research Edogawa Ranpo (江戸川乱歩) and detective fiction (探偵小説) I should actually read some detective fiction. XD And on top of that when I was younger I liked the Sherlock series with Jeremy Brett playing Sherlock, but I don't remember much about it. XD I just know that I wanted to watch it, but my parents didn't liked it that much.

In English:
The 60 Sherlock stories by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

In Hungarian:
Sherlock Holmes kalandjai
A sátán kutyája

 

I wish people would know me!


...I've been listening 30 seconds to Mars...

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game

So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful...

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

---

I hate myself and I want to die


Rip my skin apart, turn my flesh inside out, pierce throught my bones with iron needles! Let my skin dissolve into darkness, break my chest, tear out my heart, let the blood flow like a stream. Turn my eyes backwards, in a silent scream hear my voice: "I have never wanted this life!"

It's cold! FINALLY!
XDDDDDDDDDDD

!!!!!!Gothloly picnic on the 31th on July!!!!!!

It was time actually. I really misedd dressed all fancy and everything. Now I just have to get a cute little basket, and get some pretty looking cookie recipe and start baking. ^____^

!Still melting!

Ami-chan gave me some great songs and PVs to watch.
(This is awesome I fell in love with this song right away. And he actually CAN sing in English)

Why is it soooo hooooo?

Everywhere else in the house, except my room it got a bit colder after the rain, but not here. The window is wide open, but still hot... Maybe it will be beter in the morning.

After a shower it's somehow better.

I translated 3 Matenrou Opera songs, but only Faust has some english translation right now. I didn't feel like translating it to english today.
Lyrics

Fáj a fejem!


Miért van au, hogy ha egy japán elkezd angolul énekelni, vagy üvölteni, nekem elkezd fájni a fejem.....

LOOKING FOR JAPANESE FONTS!

!I am sooo old!

T_T ... T_T ... T_T ... T_T ... T_T

I took a look at the new Versailles lyrics and in Gekkakou which I really like, the refrain is from Harry Potter charms, like Accio, Enervate, Legilimens and other list of spells... o_O What the hell?!
XDDD I love HP books and it was so funny to see that in a song lyric. Ayami said Hizaki might read too much Harry Potter stuff. XDD


4 o'clock in the afternoon, and I'm depressed again. I need a job, and then I would be busy, and won't have time to feel soo down.
Still feeling shit about the things on the Versailles concert. I think I'll be an outsider soon.


Translated Shout and Bites, and Gekkakou.

!VISSZAJÖTT A NET!

^^ Happy Birthday to me ^^

Tadaima!

The concert was wonderfull, the band was awesome, they played all my fav songs, Kamijo was all smiling during the encore, that was cute. Why is he always so beuatiful?
But I heared some interesting stuff including Kamijo, and I was soo disappointed... I still think he is beautiful, and they play some great music, but I feel sadness. T_T But well he is just a human like the rest of us.
I'm still going to like their music and translate a few of their lyrics.

It will be my birthday on Friday, Monday and Tuesday Maru, Tio, Suz, Miisha and I was at Tiril's place, we had a really good time, and they baked cake for Suz and me, cause we both have birthdays this week. I loooove them soo much. *Kisses them all* XD We played games and the loser had to do some embaraseing stuff, like singing lame songs... XD
I still don't have internet access, T-****** doesn't do a thing about it. We can't connect since Friday, that is not a small problem. We phoned the costumer service the 5th time to do something, and u know what, they didn't even acknoledged the problem, since this night. Unbelievable. I took a look at my mails at Tiril's place. She had some similar connection problems with the same internet service company, but after a few hours the net came back there. I'm not that fortunate.
Tio, Miisha upload the pictures from the party for me. Pretty please! ^^

It's the day of the concert and I don't even want to go.

I was so happy when I heard Versailles comes to Hungary, but now I'm totally depressed, and I feel like it will be a totall disaster. But well, Timi will be there, and she will keep me company, the rest are not coming, or will be backstage as allways. I want to hug Timi, she allways makes me see the bright side of things, but few times she does not succeed. T_T I feel like crap now.

I think I'm in some personal crisis right now.

...Now the whole WLAN's not working in the house

3 days ago it was just my laptop, but now the other PC's are the same. What the hell is this? all the WLAN devices got ruined at the same week? Or is it just the rooter? Or a virus which disables all internet communications? Do something like that even exist? I neeeeeeeeeed my mails!!!!!!!!! When will I be able to post this on the net?
*screams*

...The WLAN died on my Laptop...

I am beyond angry, I'm mad! I bought this one year ago and it's not working properly. If I want to be fixed now, I have to pay for it, and it might be cheaper to buy a new one... I don't know how much it is to get a laptop fixed, but sure it's more expensive and complicated then a normal PC. Life sucks...

!New layout!

I changed my layout. Hope everyone likes it. I watched/read/listened too many stuff considering vampires, so that's why the main motives are blood and roses. ^^ The hand is from an album coover of Versailles (japanese visual-kei band. but since u are reading my page u probably already know that), the picture in the left corner is a fanart by me from Lee So-young's vampire manga: Model. The third visible picture on the right is one of my drawings. you can take a closer look at it in the drawings section.


Been watching some Versailles videos!
I can't believe there will be a concert here in Budapest. *full of joy, dancing all around the house* I'm soo happy!
They are so beautiful!

I should do something serious like working or translating or writing my essey but all I do is lay here and edit my webpage and watch drama series.
...
Oh I hate dreamwaver. They told me it's sooo good to edit webpages, but I can't find anything. It is chaos there. I need a book.

Watching some youtube videos. Fullmetal Alchemist has an ending, I'm about to read it. ^^

I just realized yesterday I have a twitter account from a time
We were doing a project in our communication course and had to do it on twitter. Since then I haven't even logged on.

So I thought to connect the two together and see if it will do any good. XDD

Azt hiszem túl gyorsan néztem meg túl sok Vampire Diaries részt. Most pedig totál megszállott vagyok, pedig 4 nap alatt végignéztem az egész évadot. Azóta lecseréltem a gépem hátterét és Jin helyett most Demon néz rám a képernyorol. XDD
I am totally odsessed now!!!
Még akarok részeket. Nem bírok ki szeptemberig...
Most azzal töltöm az idomet, hogy Ian Somerhalder összes filmjét megnézem. Kezdek megijedni magamtól.

Addig belinkelek néhány videót ha valakit érdekel:
The dance
Damon bitchy moments

I forgot again to write here

Lots of things happend. I finished this semester and it was quite a good year. Again I found learning a quite good thing actually. Since I started to learn japanese, not the first year, when I really was learning how to speak japanese, but after that, when the real unirersity started it began to be annoying to lear lots of stuff which I was not interested. So I lost interest really soon, and was just gone with the flow. But this year a started to be my old self from elementary school who liked to learn. It was not an easy thing to change back from the 'I don't care person' to the 'nice girl'. And I have friends, even though I'm learning and read lots of books, I still go out for parties and drink and feel good. It's not like in middle school when people said if I learn and my grades are good I'm a piece of shit. This year in university I think I managed to strip of my complexes, and feel good, go out with my classmates who I really like now. They are good people, and funny and they make me smile.
We partied last night and I drunk a bit much, the first time when I was really drunk like dont remember things and couldn't stop saying the things wich I was thinking about. There was a time I don't remember what I was talking about. I might said a few things, and I'm confused about a situation. We were drinking with a teacher, and he asked me why was I so nervous when I was talking about the thesis during the exam, and I said I'm always nervous, and then I don't remember. I might say something wrong cause he immediatelly asked someone something else... Or I'm just an idiot as always... "Someone kill me, and get me out of this misery." I need to be happy cause I have good grades and I don't have other exams but I feel annoyed and depressed.

魂の弦、
薄色の羽
噛み切った

Leadtam a TDK-t

Sot még az eloadást is megtartottam belole, kicsit el is fáradtam, mert tisztaideg voltam, hogy nem tudok majd megszólalni, ami majdnem úgy is történt, de végül sikerült folytatnom. Még mindig túl halk voltam, majd azon is változtatnom kell. A dolgozatot is át szeretném még írni, mert úgy érzem 1-2 dolog felesleges benne, párat pedig jobban ki kéne fejtenem.

Most társadalomtörténetre kell készítenem egy eloadást, a japán munkanélküli fiatalokról.
Majd egyszer azokat is felrakom ide. Legalábbis egy részét. Csak pár hónap. XD

Gone sleeping. It's almost midnight.

!!!FANJ Magazin!!!

Here is the first volume! Buy it and check it out!
The magazin is both English and Japanes so if u are learning Japanese it will be fun to read.
And of course because it's my friend's magazin! <3 XD

Úgy érzem már megint mindent rosszul csinálok.
Miért nem tudok normálisan odafigyelni a dolgokra. Egyszer az a baj, hogy a végteleségig rágódok valamin, máskor pedig gondolkodás nélkül kiadom magamból a sok hülyeséget, ami épp az eszemben jár...

Sokat ültem itthon, nem voltam emberek között, és megint olyan érzésem van, hogy mindenki utál.

Pedig hasznos dolgokat is csináltam itthon. Megírtam Seijinek a prezentációt a kenkyuu témámról, ami ugye Ranpo. tettem bele szép groteszk képeket. Az vicces lesz. Ezen kívűl, tovább olvastam a tanulmányokat, amiket eddig gyűjtöttem. Csupa vidámság az egész.
De van benne nanshoku, shounen-ai, szóval annyira nem is szörnyű.

I'm still alive!! At least my body is. My brain went on vacations a few months ago.
Just joking. XDDD
I'm busy with learning and translating for classes. I'm writing TDK about ero-guro nansensu, in Edogawa Ranpo's and Tanizaki Jun'ichiro's novels. It won't be easy, and I need a little help.

I need the following books/essays. So if someone has one of them please contact me either my e-mail address or on livejournal look for Dromi ^^

Edogawa Ranpo. Japanese Tales of Mystery & Imagination. translated by James B. Harris. Tuttle Publishing Company. Tokyo, Japan, 2000. Firsth Edition, 1956. Edogawa Ranpo. The Black Lizard and Beast in the Shadows. translated by Ian Hughes. Kurodahan Press. 2006.

Jim Reichert. Deviance and Social Darwinism in Edogawa Ranpo’s Erotic-Grotesque Thriller Kotô no oni.
(megjelent: The Journal of Japanese Studies, Table of Contents Volume 27, Number 1 Winter 2001)

Jim Reichert. “Disciplining the Erotic-Grotesque in Edogawa Ranpo’s Demon of the Lonely Isle,” in The Culture of Japanese Fascism, ed. Alan Tansman. Forthcoming from Duke University Press.

Jim Reichert. Review of Male Homosexuality in Modern Japan. The Journal of Japanese Studies, vol. 28, no. 1 (2002).

Jim Reichert. “Colonial Dreams and Eugenic Nightmares in Edogawa Ranpo’s Kotô no oni.” Asian/Pacific Studies Institute Lecture Series, Duke University, April 1999.

Jim Reichert. “Science and Sexology in Edogawa Ranpo’s Kotô no oni.” Department of Asian Studies Colloquium Series, University of British Columbia, November 1998.

Ranpo no jidai : Shōwa ero, ruro, nansensu // kōsei Yonezawa Yoshihiro.
乱步の時代 : 昭和エロ・グロ・ナンセンス / 構成米沢嘉博.

Buruma, Ian. Behind the Mask: On Sexual Demons, Sacred Mothers, Transvestites, Gangsters and other Japanese Cultural Heroes (1984)

Miriam Silverberg. Erotic Grotesque Nonsense: The Mass Culture of Japanese Modern Times. University of California Press, 1 edition, 2007.

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